A long while back I had a series of posts in which I would sum up stuff that happened in my life each month, however I sadly haven’t had much time to really devote to my blog as of late, so it kind of died. But I really do miss the therapy that is blog writing, and I am getting old and my memory is slowly fading so I need help keeping track of my life. Also as a history person it is important to remember that we can learn from our past and it is nice to know what I learned from my random experiences each month. So I figure I will at least try to get back into writing and tracking my dwindling memory with this retrospective series.
Quick, mini retrospectives in 15 words or less
January – Groupon shenanigans. Boring. Blah.
February – Laid off! Boring. Jobless.
March – Stage Managing FTW! Parties! Social life! Twilight Zone and Aardvarks! Boo whiskey and men!
April – Ardvarks! Crushing hard on sexy men. Guys are stupid throw rocks at them! C2E2! Grubhub.
- Stage managing craziness! Ended a show, joined two new ones. I have fallen in love with Cornservatory (Corn Productions, check them out! cornservatory.org) and they have taken me, a complete newbie, under their comedy wings and allowed me to work on five of their shows! They trust me with more than anyone ever has before, they allow for my voice to be heard, and they keep me smiling all through the wee hours of the morning.
- Put in my resignation to one place, although I am having a hard time leaving for a variety of reasons.
- Went on my first OKC date, well four (ish), and discovered I have very little self control. It went better than my fears wanted me to believe, nice to finally have a social life, but also hard to learn what some people are like. (See Lesson Learned #1 and 4)
- Did a few new things I never thought I would do, and all I can say is 16 year old me, who never believed she was wanted, is now jumping for joy and is quite proud of herself.
- Negatives: Pissed off friends, had my privacy violated by those I live with, another set of job rejections, went into financial negatives three times, didn’t pay bills because of lack of money, made a fool of myself for a guy who couldn’t give less of a shit about me.
Lessons Learned/Important Things to Remember
1. The saying: “Honesty is the best policy,” is a fallacy. We are taught as children to always tell the truth but as adults no one really wants honesty unless they want a reason to fight with you or get something for themselves. They can be honest with you but you cannot be honest with them. And there is such a thing as being too honest, being too open and frank about something can take all the fun out of a situation.
2. I bruise easily. Seriously, I had no idea how obvious a night out could be on my neck, chest etc.
3. I can always become a Boom Operator if I can’t get a job anywhere else. Although I would be a very short one, so that could cause a problem.
4. Even the nerdy, sweet, honest guys can turn out to have douchebag qualities.
5. I have to seriously fight against my passive aggressive tendencies, it is difficult but keeping myself centered and calm, breathing through it is really the only way.
6. I am a powerful, beautiful, amazing woman and it only took me a couple of decades to finally realize it so from now on I will not allow anyone to make me feel any different. (Also, I apparently have a nice ass, never heard that one before but it is truly appreciated.)
7. People can surprise you in every possible way. Those whom you thought were black hearted, evil to the core can come out and save you in your biggest moment of need, never forget that family comes first and they are always there, even when they seem like they really are just there to drive you insane.
8. Bite your tongue but don’t stay silent. Hard thing to do right? Well I have learned that there are times when biting your tongue, and in my case that is physically what I have to do, can lead to the best outcome. But at the same time don’t allow for your desires, thoughts, needs, opinions, feelings to be forgotten or ignored in the process.
9. Play it cool. No seriously, be chill, don’t stress it, just play it cool. Advice I was given months ago by a good friend and I never listened to her until very recently, and damn I wish I had just listened earlier. She gets a big high five from 16 year old me. Just to note this is true in every aspect of life, from friendships to relationships to work.
10. Try new things and go for it. Simple as that, don’t let fear stop you from trying something new, who knows you may enjoy it.